GrayIsh

2011-11-17T08:46:00.001+08:00

All along I have been trying to find a new girl.
But still I can't forget my old one.
I miss you more than you know it.
=(

2011-10-06T13:53:00.001+08:00

Somehow, the distance between us keep getting wider.

2011-09-28T06:43:00.001+08:00

If only I could find the answer.

2011-09-26T15:43:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I wish you were here with me.
Just lying in my arms.
Enjoying the breeze.
Somehow, I still misses you.

2011-07-10T00:22:00.001+08:00

Hai Hai Hai.
Troubled.

2011-04-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

Hmm..yesterday, there was a big thunder storm.
I think it happened to the whole singapore.
The loud thunder and bright lightning bring back some memories of the past.
Nice and funny yet painful memories.
I remembered that someone who used to be in my life.
Someone who was so scared of loud thunder.
That she would cry out loud.
And whenever there was a thunderstorm.
And I'm around with her.
She would hug me and hide in my chest.
Haha. Funny as I see it.
But seeing her so scared.
I would hug her back and tell her that everything was alright.
And I will tell her. Don't be scared cause I'm around.
She would then look up and smile. But quickly hide back to my chest when the next thunder struck.
Haha. Sweet memories it was. Unforgettable too.
Don't think anyone will see this now.
But hope that you are doing fine now.
And hope you could do what you said.
"Said it one last time, do the shit one last time."
"after, i shall quit being this way."
"i made up my mind. yes =)"
"confirm chop stamp. *meow*"
Like I always say.
Forget the past and move on. =)
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Enough ranting of the past.
Next week officially start school.
Wish me luck people!
Hope I can keep up with those young kids in class.

2011-04-12T01:18:00.003+08:00

So it has been 4 years already.
1460 days.
Didn't realise that it was so long ago.
Is it worth fighting?
What we both wanted.
Is just a simple ' I love you'.
Does it matter who say it first?

2011-03-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

Many things in my mind.
What is your wish and who you want to see?
When you know the end is coming.

Hound. That's my name.

2011-03-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

Nothing in this world last, don't they?
Feeling can fade. Memory can be forgotten.
Money can be lost. Life can just end like this.
And in some point of life.
You used to matter in someone's life.
But now you don't matter anymore.
It's doesn't matter.
I hate a quiet and cold night!

2011-03-19T02:47:00.002+08:00

Well. Today I realize that what my parent always say is right.
If you do not care about that person.
You won't even bother to get angry with them.
It's because I care, that why I said all those harsh things to you.
How I wish we could be like in the past.
You would complain to me every little thing.
And I will listen and try to solve it for you.
Unlike now, we don't even talk.
And when we do talk. We end up quarreling.
I don't regret what I said today.
But I regretted saying it in sure a harsh way.
But like you said. It's your life, you can live it however you want.
And who am I to criticize? I'm not your family.
I'm not even consider a friend.
I'm just a nobody to you.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I said those things.
But I said it out of concern.
Maybe in a wrong way. But it's true that I care.
But it's useless now. Cause you won't even bother to see this.
After all, it was me that said.
What you do doesn't matter to me anymore.
And I won't even bother or care.
And what I do.
It doesn't matter( your favorite line ) to you anymore.
Well. I guess it's over between us.
Everything is over.

Ps. Sometimes it's better to keep some feelings hidden inside. Cause revealing those feelings may end up in a hurtful ending for both parties.

2011-03-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

Banished from heaven, Sent to hell.
This is my favorite line in the past.
I know it's emo. Haha.
Anyway. Im in a confused mood lately.
Argh! Hard to describe it now.
And I'm getting answer from my question that i asked few weeks ago.
Or maybe a month ago. I can't remember.
It's no. Who would say yes after what i did, right?
Well. Let's hope that it will end up well.
There is something i always wanna do.
It's to ride my bike with my love one.
To a quiet beach. And just sit there letting the sea breeze blow on our face.
Let us forget everything fuck up thing. And enjoy the night.
Well. Don't think i can do it soon thou.
First I do not have a bike.
Second I do not have a love one.
LOL!
That's it. Enough of ranting.
See you guys!

2011-02-28T02:30:00.002+08:00

Is things not going the way I want it to be?
Or is it me that don't want things to be the way it will be?
Waiting make people go crazy sometimes.
The past can never be changed.
But I never regret meeting all those people who step in my life and change my life.
Whether is it a good change or bad change.
Cause it make me who I am today.
But sometimes, I regret in stepping into their life and changed their life.
Life is always full of regrets and surprises.
Damn it! Damn it all!

2011-02-14T12:33:00.002+08:00

Well. I'm gonna spend my Vday with someone special.
I'm gonna spend it with all my colleague working today with me.
Vday and i'm going to work later! Poor soul.
Anw i recieve a good vday present.
It's not actually a gift.
It's just a sentence.
"No matter what. No matter what happened. No matter of what status. You will always matter to me in a way."
Haha. Maybe the person who say this doesn't mean anything at all.
But to me. It's a good gift.
At least i know that i do mattered to someone else other than my family.

Ps. Beautiful things, beautiful people don't last. Only beautiful memory can last.

2011-01-15T12:22:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... Feel like posting again.
Congrats that you had a bf.
Seriously. Hope you will last long.
As a friend and as a Ex.
Just want to tell you this.
Have confidence not only in yourself.
But also in your bf. =)
Now I start to realise.
That the feeling I had for you for so long.
Is not love, It's guilt.
I'm still guilty about what I've done to you.
I should learn to forgive myself. Haha.
Now I'm letting it go.
Cause feeling guilty won't change anything.
Take care and be happy eh?

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Going to study soon.
Application start at april.
There is still alot of things I want to do before study start.
Hmmm... Wonder if i got the time and money?

2010-12-01T00:54:00.001+08:00

Updates!
Working for like...3 months.
And now I got my incentives!!
Woohoo! Rich!!
And finally had time and money to do what I always wanted!

2010-10-10T05:49:00.002+08:00

We were like a piece of ceramic cup.
Perfectly shaped.
But we fell to the ground one day.
And we broke into 2 pieces.
Now when I try to stick this 2 pieces back again.
I realise that there are small little fragments that got shattered along the way.
We can never be the same cup again no matter how we try.
It will never be the same.

2010-09-16T12:33:00.002+08:00

Back for more.
Been really busy this few days.
Cause working and its my Bro (alan chua chee how) bday celebration.
Haven got enough rest till today.
Work is still the same.
I have come to realize that many people of my age has not found the meaning of life.
Cause they do not realize the importance of themselves.
People should see more in themselves rather than just comparing to others.
Its who you are that matters not where you stand in the society.
And to people who think that you are in trouble.
Just take a look around and you will realize that there other people who are worst than you.
Life is short. Don't waste it on something that doesn't even affect your life.
Live your life to the fullest in the way you can best afford.
That is my way of life. =)
I'm not a adviser but feel free to find me if you are in trouble.
But not financially. LOL!

2010-08-17T23:46:00.003+08:00

The day come again. The day when I ponder about stuff.
Is it the flashback of memories? Is it the feeling that I still have?
Or is it the guilt that is haunting me down?
I do not know for sure.
But there is one thing I know for sure.
I won't start another relationship until I know what the fuck is wrong with me.
Why the hell is this thing torturing me?
Does god really hate me that much?
Damn this thing. FUCK IT ALL!

2010-08-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

First day of work! Not what I expected.
But all went well. Did not get scold....YET.
Sun was nice and all. Only met one guai lan customer.
Say ' Since you guys are not doing anything, why can't get some water for me? '
FUCK! It's SELF SERVICE! Omg! Ang moh does not understand English?
Well. Had quite a few 'sight' seeing. I'm might get addicted!
I think I didn't work for too long. Feel tired!
Got to go rest. See ya!

2010-08-04T18:39:00.002+08:00

2 more days to ord! Yea!
Work is coming but I'm already broke.
No money to eat. Damn. I hate being poor.
That all.
And to 'you' if you can see this. Be happy. =)

2010-08-02T12:44:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is not a good night.
Can't sleep and mind never stop thinking.
Fuck that. Maybe I should start consuming sleeping pills.
But to my friends out there. I'm still not going down.
I'm alright for now. Life still need to carry on.
3 years and I still cant forget. Hope it won't take me 10 years.
=)

2010-07-25T10:22:00.000+08:00

Alright. 2 more weeks to ORD!
And i'm looking forward to my full time job.
Cause get pay i got alot of things i wanna do.
My full body tattoo, bike license, car license, boxing class.
Woohoo. Tattoo tattoo here i come.
But the only thing is my mum don't approve it.
Think getting my tattoo means start a big, and I mean BIG quarrel.
LOL. Work work here i come. Pay please come faster.
Woohoo!

Off day.

2010-07-20T03:08:00.002+08:00

Tonight got off. So went movie with cham, chee, seng.
Gay huh? 4 guys. LOL.
But its quite a long time I seen cham.
No difference at all. And one thing.
He don't seems to grow old! Fuck!
Heard from him that my 'owner' is giving birth to my second 'little master'.
OMG! 小东好棒！
Wahaha. Hope I get the chance to see both my 'little masters' soon.
After movie went kbox.
That's all.
And now I got a vacancy in a job.
Once I ord, I'm starting work very soon. Good luck to me!

Its been long.

2010-07-17T21:45:00.001+08:00

Finally I'm going to ord. Damn. Ord isn't fun.
Need to look for job to keep me surviving till my school starts.
Or maybe till my school life ends. LOL.
Its time for a brand new phrase of my life.
Wish me luck! =)